I've been in a creative slump.. again! I don't think I'll ever see the way forward, but I'll keep marching because I've started. I was in my mid twenties when I learned how much I loved marching. Marching outside, marching around bunk beds. Always marching, always with over eighty people. As a 'create - or,' it is blindly marching with no hand to guide you. I also struggle with networking and creating. As of right now, I've been using the internet for networking across different platforms. Trying to stay on top of those communications is anxiety-inducing.
Writer's block. I didn't know what that was..- until now. I am going to just write my way out of it via this website. I have this wonderful place to express myself in the void that is the Internet. Reality is a void. It's easy to get mixed up between the void that "is" the Internet and that which IS Reality. I did that recently..- well not me but someone I met via this digital infected spiderweb. The person's name was "Valerio," a young man, who happened to me an older woman, from the UK. "Valerio" has many issues. One being lying...- for no reason. One day Valerio asks to...- oh, yeah..
So this community I'm helping build is on this retro avatar chatroom that I played as a kid....
Habbo Origins, A potential Runescape competitor?
by u/Trick_Top2935 in habbo
I wouldn't had shared that with you back then..- but I'm grown now. I remember being 10 thinking I'd be on Habbo for the rest of my life... and then I got off. This year, I downloaded the mobile app..- got on a few times and happened to run into someone I knew fourteen years back. That led me on this deep dive into myself as a kid. No one knows this but I used to run an internet "crime family" of doxxers, scammers, and some mo'shit. Getting on a computer for me was being greeted with "Ciao" by pixel mobsters signing on from all over the world. I used to have to sneak to get to a computer and run my little Family, without giving too much information on myself. I led this Family of teenager internet bandits but didn't know how to dox. I was also 12 with an okay grammar leading 16-22 year old's... Did that from 2008 to 2013ish. They banned everything..- long story, look up 'the Great Mute.'
So I came back.. they was screaming "PAPYER... BACK!! UGHH!!!" Ran into bro, he was still doing the mob thing. The mob thing didn't sound appealing to me, I was there to promote my YouTube. Speaking of which, Habbo Hotel got me 150 subs...- any small creators reading this. But he introduced me to the active Habbo Families and I hung around for a few days. Then I came across an idea on using Habbo as a platform for a reading group. This group could read together for years..- a family.. AH! I used to run one of those on this very site..- Okay, let's run it back. I guess I had a reputation back in the day because whatever I did back then, helped this project. For the last month, I've been developing, organizing, and growing this group. I met Val on literally like my third day out there.
Val. The woman in a dark room on Discord, who sounded like a blend between Scottish grandmother and British teenager in 1966. This woman told us that they had cancer the first week of this social experiment. Not only that, but heart cancer. I looked up 'heart cancer' because I had never heard of it. "Well damn, my mom's a nurse" were my thoughts. It's that rare. So okay..- we got someone with heart cancer. Even if they were lying, I was going to allow it to deepen my mission. It was just how the lie played out. Long story, short. "I'm going to the hospital." *roommate (who is not the roommate) signs on alt account* "Val is dead." "...." "OKAY, YOU GOT ME. I'M VAL. HERE'S $500."
So that happened. It made me feel woozy. What is the purpose of doing this on a platform that is built for weird people. I'm weird. Not the type of weird to lie about heart cancer. But 'weird' is Pandora's Box. You open that open, you get GOD KNOWS WHAT!
I started this out with writer's block. I feel okay about it. This website ain't going nowhere. The community is going nowhere. The YouTube is going nowhere. Now just figuring everything else out.
FAREWELL!
